I am a traveler, wanderer, psychic, witch, scientist of the universe, always wondering-- how does it all REALLY work? Slowly, I am figuring it out.
We've been lied to about who we are and why we are here.
I grew up in Minnesota, where the winters are fierce, barren, and biting, and the spring brings new life to the world. I similarly go through extreme phases in life, vacillating from sunshine bliss to deep blue sorrow to grayed out depression to big sky rainbows and everywhere in between. I never realized what a profound gift this was, and how essential it was to my work with others. By walking through this vast range of experiences and feelings, I am blessed with the ability to really understand what others are going through, because I KNOW what it's LIKE.
I'm done judging myself for my waves. I'm learning how to surf with the grace and joy of a dolphin. And I'm finally understanding what a gift this is and how I can use that gift.
In 2015, I left home to work on a farm in Hawaii. I had just graduated college and had no idea what to do with my life. My entire life had been built around pleasing others, namely, my aggressive and narcissistic father. Growing up, I lived in constant fear of his anger and disapproval, and did whatever I could to outperform my sister and be his golden child. Everything I did was for the sake of my survival. I didn't want his anger aimed towards me. I was an over achiever in school, always getting good grades, joining marching band, theater, speech, german club, color guard, national honors society, just to keep busy and win awards and remain in my top position in his eyes. College was an obvious next step for the golden child, but I stumbled through university with no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I had no sense of self outside of the competition to be "good." I managed to graduate with a degree in theater, but I had no desire to act. I had no idea who Erin was.
Without anyone to please, without any clear next steps on what would secure my success and his approval, I took a leap of faith and I flew away, knowing I was embarking on a long journey to find out who I was. I dove deep into my spirituality and held on to the faith that wherever I was going, I would end up finding myself.
My faith gave me wings. And I want to help you find yours.
